Saturday, November 22, 2008

Chillin Saturday

Good Morning to ALL!!! I am a little frustrated. I am going to vent. Okay here I go.

There is a lot of unknown questions right now in my life...

*Am I EVER going to get married to this man that I love with all of my heart?
*Now that he has this job promotion/relocation - to Glenwood Springs, CO when and where will we move?

*Will we be married before we go?
*Will we be engaged before we go? I told him we have to be atleast engaged before I just drop everything, change my life, and pick up and move to another STATE. (he doesn't seem to get that). AM I OUT OF LINE FOR FEELING THIS WAY? I want your feedback folks.

*Why do we have to be moving to such a freaking expensive place?
*Will we look for rings ever?
*Why are MEN retarded (I know I will never get an answer to this one).
*Do I question our relationship if we aren't married before we move?
*Am I silly for looking at wedding rings, dresses, colors, etc???

Gosh dang its frustrating growing up. Its even more frustrating waiting for a man to commit. I know men in general have a harder time commiting than women do, but holy schmokes I get ornery because he acts like a doofus!

Okay I am done venting for a little while. I am going to clean and hopefully I will get some of my frustration out.

3 comments:

Me said...

Hey! Your little boy is getting so big! For some reason i just felt like i had to post :) It looks like you have found a great guy in your life and he makes you and your boy super happy. Guy's just don't seem to get the whole planning marriage thing..lol..although me and my husband knew we wanted to marry each other, i was the one looking at rings, colors, dresses, and our future...lol...If he can't commit to being engaged though, even if it is like a two year engagement, i wouldn't move to CO with him just yet, but obviously you have to do whatever your heart and head says and what you know is right...whatever you decide it will be the best decision for you and Jax. Don't worry too much about it though, things will ALWAYS work out in the end :) Take care!

Tara Mogle said...

aaahhhh! it feels good to vent doesn't it! ok, ash, you asked for feedback so leave it to annoying old me to give you some. as for looking at wedding stuff do it, we all have done it so really there is nothing wrong with it...its kinda fun to dream about that special day anyway right? um...moving to colorado????? I say, no ring....no move! seriously ash! i love you too much to see you get hurt. not that he doesn't love you but a ring SAYS: HEY I AM COMMITTED TO YOU!!!! what if you move out there together...you uproot yourself, Jax, job, crap... your whole life....and then what if, what if....i'm just saying what if....things don't go as planned. Thats a lot of heartache and pain to have to deal with in another beepin' state. Taylor is a great guy and you seem really happy with him. I hope that everything works out for you guys! We want you to be happy and if moving to Colorado with him will make you happy then I say go for it! If you have any doubts about it then hold off for awhile! When is he planning to go?

ok, I think I said too much. I hope to heck I haven't offended you. That is NOT my intention at all. I think the world of you and I sincerely want you to find happiness and I know that you will
Love you tons
Auntie Tara

MeganRuth said...

sometime you just got to vent. i may be dumb for saying this but your not wrong for feeling this way!!!!!!!!! picking up and moving to a new place is a big deal and you definatley need a commitment bfore you get up and move jax somewhere new. cuz thats hard on kids. so i say get a ring before you move. you dont have to be married before that or anything but at least have that commitment. anyhow love ya girl i know everything will work out!.