Sunday, November 2, 2008

Baby Hungry


Is it okay that I am baby hungry? I want more kids so bad. I just love to hold everyone else's babies because I know it's not my time to have anymore yet. Me and Taylor want kids bad though. I was pregnant and experienced a miscarriage. This has made me even more baby hungry. I have been experiencing some post pardum depression. It is hard. I will be okay and then all of a sudden I am just completely bawling and down in the dumps. Maybe I shouldn't go public with this stuff but I just feel so alone with these experiences lately. I don't want to bug Taylor about it because I feel stupid that it is still bothering me.
The picture shows two things that I want...a baby and a ring. I am the kind of person who wants things and wants them now. I have hard time letting time and fate do their jobs. I know me and Taylor are going to end up married but I have a hard time waiting for him to make the decision. Goodness I am such a girl. Emotional, dramatic, and retarded. No offense to you other women out there :)


I really need to wait for a baby for about another year though. My doctor told me to wait and make sure my cancer is cleared up. It makes sense and I know I need to wait but I would LOVE to be pregnant right now.

8 comments:

Vintage Soul said...

Oh Ash I miss you so much!! Are you guys in Ephraim now? You need to come visit! We've moved into the little white house next to the apartments. I now what it's like to be baby hungry!!! I am so sorry about your miscarriage. I can't imagine. And I'm sorry you are waiting for a ring, I may not know exactly how you feel but I feel like mine might get taken away . . . I just have to wait for him to "decide," as you put it. :S But we all miss you and your lovely smiling face, it's okay to vent sometimes though. So come catch up sometime!! Loves!! :)

Nichole said...

Hey Ashton, I am so sorry about your miscarriage, I had a miscarriage before I got pregnant with Jaxton, it was hard but I know now that thing happen for a reason. Nine months later I was pregnant with my little man, it was the right time for me, now he is 4 and amazing. Your son Jax is so cute! I hope that everything you want will happen soon. Take care and keep up all the hard work!
Nichole Blackham

Sarah K said...

Ok you had a misscarriage? when??? I am so sorry! Im glad everything is ok now though... And whats this about cancer? What the hell ashton! Quit leaving me out of the loop!!! Tell me all about it? Are you ok?

Melissa Zuber said...

I totally understand!!! All in due time my friend! I am sorry about your miscarriage. Time will pass quickly for you. A year that is nothin! You are a great mom! Your halloween cookies looked scrumptous!

Davis Fam said...

Hey Ash. I'm so sorry to hear you had a miscarriage. We've had a couple and know how hard it can be. Just keep the faith, and when the time is right, you will be blessed with another bundle of joy! We love you.

Anonymous said...

ash
i am really sorry to hear about your miscarriage i couldn't imangine that. hang in there. at least you have jax. he is so cute and fun. and the ring thing believe me i waited forever. and i mean forever. i am glad i waited for zack to be ready. keep me posted and let me know if you need anything

Sheila said...

Hey Ash!!I had no idea about your miscarriage and I am so sorry. I know it is easier said than done but you will see how when the right time comes everything will fall into place. I had two miscarriages and it was really hard, but I finally had to except that everything works according to Heavenly Fathers time and not mine. And now we have our beautiful baby Ellie!!! Hang in there and please call me if you ever just want to talk because I also went through a really hard time when I had mine and even if you don't feel like talking to anyone, friends help a lot.
Love Sheila

VeeAnn said...

Cancer? What?