Things are Looking UP!

Things are looking better for us right now. That last post was saved as a draft but I didn't know it so I just posted it because it was how I was feeling about a week ago.

I am officially moving in with my parents. I am not too excited about it (and either are they) but desperate times call for desperate measures. It is quite frustrating though because of a few reasons:
1. I have to give up my cute apartment in Ephraim.
2. I have to give up my INDEPENDENCE (just for the time being).
3. My mom wants me to put my couches and TV in the extra room but me and Jax have to share with Madison.
4. They want me to pay a small bill, which is fine, but I feel I should be allowed to have a room for me and Jax instead of my stuff in there for everyone to ruin but yet I am still paying a bill and just kind of shoved wherever.
5. I am a mother and have a small family of my own but I still have to abide by my mother's rules (that includes curfew). What the???
6. I will have to drive about 30 minutes to work and then another 30 minutes back from work each day (gas prices are horrible = my traveling expenses will be horrible).
7. There are ants and spiders (black widows) all over that house. Ants inside and black widows in that extra room I want to stay in and all over outside.

I know I sound ungrateul but I am not. The reason for me moving home is I need to get caught up on my car and medical bills and eventually just pay them off. I swore to myself that the last time I moved out of their house (last august) would my LAST time. But, I am kind of excited in the same sense to move home. Here are the reasons for that:
1. I get to be near my family.
2. I won't be alone at night - even though Jax is there, I still get scared sometimes when its just me and him.
3. Jax will have his buddies to play with (madi, carter, tay tay, mimi, bumpa, and the dogs)
4. I will be home with my puppy every night. I can train her and be with her and play with her and she can sleep by me.
5. We will be closer to Taylor.
6. I will be able to go exercise in the mornings because someone will usually be there in case Jax wakes up (which usually doesn't happen before 8 unless I wake him).
7. I will have the extra assistance (if needed) with Jax when I am having a bad day, if I am sick, if he is sick, or if he isn't listening to me at all (normal right now). It is nice to have my parents to either help calm him or me down. They know more than I do so its good to learn from them about teaching Jax and raising him and having patience with him.
8. I will be close to other family members.

I am very grateful for my family but no matter who you are or how PERFECT a family seems to be, it is always hard for the other children who have been out on their own to move back in. We will manage. I need to talk to mother about the whole situation with the room. I am scared to but I will have to.

I got my car fixed! My AMAZING boss and his wife took care of it for me. I love my job and the people I work with, well most of them :) They are extremely good to me. They are patient with me. If I need to miss because I am sick or because Jax is sick, they are very understanding about it. If I need to leave home because I forgot something or if I need to run to a doctor appointment, they are very nice about it. I LOVE MY JOB!

Me and Taylor have been playing softball with his company team. It has been really fun. I feel it has helped us get past that rough patch we hit a few weeks ago. We are bonding and getting outside of the house now that the weather is STARTING to get nicer. Jax goes with us and plays with the kids of the other teammates. He is usually pretty good but he will take off when I turn my head for a second. But, he is two. He really has been good though. It has been a bonding experience for all of us.

I am cutting back on the soda. I am drinking more water. I am sick of gaining weight. There for a while, I was losing it and looking good. When I move in with my parents, I will be able to go work out in the morning and try to get this extra weight off. Plus, exercise always makes me happier. "Exercise creates endorphins, endorphins make people happy, and happy people just don't shoot their husbands." (Elle Woods, Legally Blonde). I am not gonna shoot anybody but I am just showing that exercise helps people (including me) feel happier, more relaxed, and just BETER all the way around - emotionally, mentally, and physically. This should help me out with my cranky moods that I have been having lately.

Jax will be getting tubes put in his ears on the 17th. Hopefully this will help immensely with reoccuring ear infections. I feel so bad when he gets them because he gets so sick. The doctor said that Jax should feel a whole lot better after this. I sure hope so. Poor little guy. He has been having ear infection after ear infection. The weather has been so up and down that I think it has really affected him with his ears, causing colds and fevers and all that fun stuff. Plus, I know he has allergies and he gets them from me. Sorry bud. So, hopefully these tubes will help out a lot.

I go up to Murray on the 18th for my pre-op appointment and then the 19th I have my procedure. I really hope this gets all of the cells. I don't want to have to go a step further - a cone procedure. The cone procedure will affect the integrity of the cervix and can make it harder for me to have kids. I want more kids here soon so I hope that this procedure gets rid of it. Goodness. I am excited for the rest I will be getting that weekend though. Its pretty sad when I get excited for rest when its after a procedure like that.

I am excited to caught up on my car and medical stuff. I am excited to move in with my parents because I am going to be able to get a new bed in a few months. Maybe that will be my Christmas present to me :) I have plans to decorate my room cute and get some things that I have wanted and needed.

Again, I am just venting about the current events in my life, but I guess that's what a blog is for!