Ash Bash

New Blog Address

2010-03-05T23:04:00.002-07:00

I just created a new blog for our growing family theleakefam.blogspot.com. Add it to your list, read it as you please, and feel free to leave comments :) Happy Blogging

TEX!!! I love him :)

2009-10-27T09:30:00.003-06:00

October 18th was Tex's 1st Birthday! I cant believe it. Time flies. I bought him a mummy dog for his bday and man he has already chewed it up. He loves it! Let me just tell you about this dog.

My awesome aunt and uncle, Veeann and Matt Mogle, had 2 golden retrievers who had some puppies. Thanksgiving was at their house last year. The pups were a big hit with all the kids and family. Oh man I was going nuts. They were just so damn cute!!! Taylor had just lost his 10 year old jack russell (while I was doggysitting him while taylor was in Texas) so we were trying to find him a new dog. I sent him pics of these pups. He had not come up with me that day, gotta love marital fights right before family get togethers. LOL. Anyway, I sent him pics of these puppies and he got all excited. I have always wanted a golden retriever. I suggested we get him one of these pups. They would give us a deal on one too. I started to look through the liter to see if there was one that stuck out. They were all so cute and fluffy! The determining point was which ones were spoken for and which ones were not. We wanted a boy too. There was one boy left! He ended up being the one I was eyeing all afternoon anyway. Taylor came up and we picked out a pup! When they were ready, we came back up and picked up our "clearance puppy". Thanks Matt & Veeann.

This dog is the best. He cuddles, he plays, he fetches, sits, shakes, lays down, and pants like you wouldn't believe. He is AMAZING with Jax. He follows him around the house, wrestles with him, plays soccer with him, plays fetch, etc. He could play fetch all day every day. He loves it. We will look out in the yard and he will be playing catch with himself. He tosses his rope or his tennis ball around and will get after it. His color is AMAZING. He is a perfect mix of his mom and dad. Not as dark as Addie but not as light as Beckam. He isn't as little as Addie but not as monsterous as Beckam. He is a perfect mix. He is beautiful! Ice cubes are his fave. He will hear me getting ice for a drink and he runs in the kitchen and waits for me to throw him one. I love it! He makes a great pillow. We will all be watching a movie and Taylor will lay on him instead of using a pillow or the couch. Tex will lay at or on your feet. Chillin in the front yard is his favorite thing to do!

He has seen his sister Jade lay on the couch like she is a princess and he is starting to do the same. He isn't quite as graceful as her...lol! He is such a goofball. Oh we love love love him! He will wake us up in the morning. Either with his loud panting and constant pacing the house or he will lick our face. When the alarm goes off, he is up and at 'em. Early bird dog! Jade will sleep in like she is a teenage boy. And if you dare mess her sleep up, she gives you the evil eye. Spoiled dog!

Tex, Jade....we love you dogs! I was never this much of a dog person but man I love my dogs. Even if there are days I want to give them away.

Wedding Photography

2009-08-24T15:33:00.002-06:00

Mine and Taylor's Wedding will be next year, not sure when, but for sure next year. I have already started looking at everything. Any ideas/suggestions to vendors, please let me know. The item I am currently researching is PHOTOGRAPHY. Please list your wedding photographer and any other known photographers that did a great job. They will be the ones to do my bridals and all the professional pictures on the big day. Comment their information - websites are great, phone numbers, locations, etc. Thanks for your help :)

Make It & Love It

2009-08-12T14:07:00.001-06:00

Look at this blog for cute baby stuff! I am loving it. I am learning how to make some of this stuff but I am loving what they have to offer. Enter for this give away. www.makeitandloveit.blogspot.com

CUTE Book!!!

2009-07-09T12:55:00.003-06:00

My mom gave me a couple of cute books for my birthday. One of them is for Jax too. It is called "You Are Special". It is SOOOO cute. If you haven't read it yet, you should. I cried, of course!

Update Coming Soon

2009-07-09T10:19:00.003-06:00

Okay so I haven't posted in a long time and I am sure so many of you are having withdrawals. Haha NOT! Read my blog fellow bloggers and I will post more! Toodles :)

Pics By Ashley Eliza!

2009-05-13T22:53:00.008-06:00

My good friend Ashley took some pics of me and Jax this last Saturday. We went to a park and it was WINDY. She got some great shots even though the wind was not cooperating. I have listed her blog link so you can check out her work. Ash, thanks girly. I love them.

Check 'em Out!

http://ashleyelizaphotographyandevents.blogspot.com/

Spring Fling/Girly BBQ!

2009-04-28T22:23:00.003-06:00

Okay Girls! I have an event in planning process. Here's the information. Email me @ ashton.welch@yahoo.com your contact information. I'm not gonna ask again so if you snooze, you lose. I will be sending out invitations for this event and other ones to come (graduation luau, summer swim party, and more).

This SPRING FLING / GIRLY BBQ! is planned for Saturday May 16. There is going to be Layers Clothing, Mary Kay, and Scentsy there. It will be a pot luck BBQ. I will be providing most of the food and doing an actual BBQ! There will be the regular hamburgers and hot dogs for the kids...and you too if you want some. I will be doing chicken stickers! Yumm! This is for all ladies, mom's, not mom's, etc. Just come have some fun! It will be outside so the kids can play or if you would all rather we can do a Gal Getaway For A Day and leave the kids with the guys!

This is in the process of planning and its going to be a BLAST!!!

REMEMBER! Email me your info to ashton.welch@yahoo.com.

..these are a few of my favorite things...

2009-04-24T23:52:00.011-06:00

Okay so there are some things in which I have been obsessed with lately. I tag anyone who reads this to do this.

Sugar Glow bodywash by Tone...yummy!

Clorox All Purpose Wipes in a decorative tote. I have some at home and at work. Love them!

Tara has gotten me into coupons. Tomorrow I am getting the Sunday paper and saving all the coupons I can and will print some off too!

Pepsi....again! I love it.

Long Shorts. The weather has been allowing me to wear them again. They are my fave.

totally JK about the 1st two pics but i just had to post them.

ah ha here are the ones i like! i seriously wear long shorts to work just about every day during spring and summer.

Victoria's Secret bras. They are seriously the only ones that fit just perfect!

FACEBOOK...I seriously dont know why. It will fade out, maybe.

Taquitos. Beef and Chicken. They are so dang good!

Layers Clothing's Spring Line. This shirt here is called the ASHTON....I am definitely buying this one. Check out their new spring collection (http://www.layersclothing.com/). I will be hosting a party within the next month so please take a look and see if there is ANYTHING you want.

Happy Blogging! Ya'll better be reading my post more often. There will be great things to come.

Reply to post below as well.

I Need Your Info

2009-04-14T18:28:00.000-06:00

Hey All! I need you to email me your contact information. I go through phones like they are underwear and can't keep numbers. Email me the following info to ashton.welch@yahoo.com

Name
Spouse (if any)
Children names (if any)
Birthday(s)
Mailing Address
Phone Number
Email Address
and anything else you want me to know (keep it clean folks!)
Pics of you/you and your family would be great too.

I am making a cute contact book so I have your info and won't have to keep buggin you all for your numbers/addresses/etc. The more info the better ;)
Thanks much! Peace Out!

Aaarrrggghhh Matey!

2009-04-03T15:21:00.004-06:00

So Jax is into acting like a pirate every now and again. I went up north Saturday to take my mom to work and stopped at Old Navy on my way home. I saw a shirt for Jax that was perfect....it has a pirate on it and it says "What AAARRGGGHHH you lookin at?" Its cute.

Taylor put a bandana on Jax had him act like a pirate! Then we watched Pirates of the Caribbean. It was a fun theme night! They played like they were pirates too.

Laci & Nayvi!

2009-03-30T17:46:00.003-06:00

Last Thursday, I was able to see one of my bestest friends and her new baby! Laci and Nayvi Chlarson. I loved seeing both of them. They live far away :( Laci has been there for me through so much. Laci, thank you so much. I don't know what I would do without you. You are truly a blessing in my life. Thank you for letting me hold and feed Nayvi. She is a DOLL! She is just absolutely beautiful and perfect. You are such a cute mom. I wish we lived closer to each other so I could see you both and Clint more often. Thank you for everything Laci! I love you!

Badgerette Review

2009-03-29T19:49:00.002-06:00

This last Thursday, Kathleen (my drill coach at Snow) had her last review. She invited all of the alumni to the review. It was good to see all my old dancin pals.

These 2 I miss so much! Whitney Soper (aka TINA) and Patricia (aka PAT). They are both from my 2nd year. They both left after the 1st semester. I missed them tons. Love you girls!

Me and Sarah Perry. She was on my 1st year with me. Love her!

Me and Brooke. On Badgerettes 1st year.

Ashley, me, and Kiley - the CHOPS! we all cut our hair. We use to all have long hair. It was soo good to see these 2 girls. Both years with these 2. Love them.

Taylor Stapley, Sarah Hunter, Tiffany, Sarah Perry, ME, Ashley Shippen, Kiley, Lindee Frye, Brooke....these are all girls from my 1st year on Snow's Drill.

I love them!

2009-03-29T19:19:00.002-06:00

Jade is the biggest lap dog ever. She loves to snuggle. Taylor gives me such a hard time about her but look at who is snuggling with her :) I love it. They are so cute!

This Last Week

2009-03-22T12:54:00.006-06:00

Well nothing too exciting has been going on. The weather has been AWESOME. Work has been crazy busy. I did get my hair chopped and colored blonde. Dramatic change. Not sure if I am use to it yet.

(this isn't the best picture of it...wait til i fix it cute...i will get one up soon)

Jax has been ridin his bike like crazy.

Its been fun to just open the windows while I am cooking or cleaning and let Jax play outside. The dogs have been out more. Jade looks funny with dirt all over her face.

Taylor had family come in at the beginning of the week. He went up to his uncle's house in North Ogden area and stayed for a couple days. This is what it looks like from his back deck. NICE!!

Snowboarding @ Sundance

2009-03-10T22:13:00.005-06:00

Sunday, Taylor and I went snowboarding @ Sundance. It was a beautiful sunny day. We had lots of fun but I didn't do too hot. Let me just tell ya that I completely suck at getting off of the lifts. The first time I got off, I fell HARD on my left butt cheek aka my ischium. My leg tingled for a little bit. That didn't start off my day too well but I got back up and kept trying. I do okay and then i get going fast. It scares me so I slow down. I pretty much rode my board horizontally every time. My knees definitely hurt. We tried going on another trail and ended up in BLACK zones. There was a trail that would take you around all of them but it was flat. I kept falling so i finally said screw it!!! I took my board off and walked until it got steeper so I could have momentum. But I did have fun. We ate some good chili and it was nice to get away for a day. The sun was out, wind felt good, and it was just so pretty up there. Taylor, thank you for being so patient with me. He could have gone about 5x as many runs as we did because he was waiting for me. He is good at it. I love you babe.

After Work

2009-03-06T10:44:00.003-07:00

Yesterday, I took a couple of pics of me and my lovey after work. I love him so much. He is so hott and sweet. Kind of like a cinnamon roll! Haha. I made cinnamon rolls for breakfast. They were GOOD! We were making faces last night while i was cooking dinner. I don't really know what we were pouting about. Maybe because neither of us wanted to do the dishes (I did them this morning).

Jax can pick his boogers with his nose. That's pure talent!!

Mimi's Birthday!

2009-03-04T22:32:00.003-07:00

(my mom enjoying her birthday!! geek!)

last night, we went to my mom's house and hung out with the fam. My dad had to work last night so he wasn't there. it was still fun. i picked up a pizza and made my mom her favorite cake, german chocolate! we goofed off and chilled. it was nice. my family is definitely a bunch of goobers. that is why i love them!

Saturday

2009-03-01T18:11:00.009-07:00

Look at me folding that turkey. Go me!!! I made a 6 foot sandwich ALL BY MYSELF!!!

Saturday was a great day! I worked at Subway with some of the coolest girls I know.

VANNAH!!!!

Mrs Cari Higham. Newlywed. Congrats girlfriend!!

Freakin Kira Higham. I love her!!

My favorite part of the day was when Mindy brought her BEAUTIFUL baby girl Atley down to see me. I couldn't get enough of her. She is just so perfect. Mindy, thanks for coming down. It was so good to see you.

Potty Trained!

2009-02-25T08:17:00.003-07:00

I posted a post similar to this before but I have to get the pic in this one. He is doing so good. #2 accidents are happening less, knock on wood. He has peed the bed only once so far, knock on wood. Jax is doing awesome with it! I am very proud of him. Him going to the bathroom by himself makes him seem so much bigger now. When I would change his diaper, there was a feeling of him still being my baby. He is growing up! It makes me sad but man I am so grateful I don't have to change any more diapers until the next munchkin comes along.

You can see the golden arch! Go Jax! He does great with aiming and lifting both seats (not in this pic though). He is going to hate me later for posting this pic but its so cute!

Chillin

2009-02-24T22:19:00.002-07:00

This is just a pic of me and Jax chillin in our jammies. That's what we do best :) I love him so dang much.

Bike Riding

2009-02-24T20:00:00.005-07:00

Me and Jax got home yesterday afternoon and it was nice weather. I let the dogs out, Jax hopped on his bike, and we just went around our caldisac (spelling?).

His eye is squished by my big face. My eye is infected with pink eye! Yum! We look like a couple of goobers in this pic. But that's who we are :)

It started to get dark and cold so we went in and made dinner. It was a fun little evening :)

Park City

2009-02-21T08:08:00.003-07:00

Last Sunday, we went to Park City! Taylor and his friend Nick took me and Nick's wife Kelly to Park City for Valentine's Day. It was awesome. Kelly and I went to the spa while the boys went to The Canyons and snowboarded. I got a massage and a pedicure. It was so nice. Then us girls went down to the outlets. I got some dang cute pants and a sweatshirt, both on sale! Woo Woo! That's the way I roll :) It was lots of fun. I haven't been to Park City FOREVER. It was sunny and just perfect!

This dog was sitting outside one of the stores at the outlets. He was HUGE and so cute. He wanted to play so bad.

Blessed

2009-02-21T07:53:00.004-07:00

I probably sound so mean about Jax. I love him so much. Don't get me wrong. He is just at a hard age and its my first child. He is so fun. He is so smart. He talks so good. He is doing great with his potty training. He is the light of my life. I would be lost without him. My mom and dad are his favorite people. He loves them so much. Madi and Carter are like his siblings. He tells me he wants his friends, Madi & Carter. He will always want to call my mom and dad and talk to them. He tells them he loves them and wants them. Its cute. Then he gets there and he wants me. I was the exact same way. I would cry when I left my parents and would go to my grandmas or anyone's house. Then I would cry when they would come pick me up. Patience is something I am working on. Some days are better than others. Jax has been riding his bike on sunny days. I am excited for the warm weather, even though we need the moisture. We are a very blessed family. Me and Taylor both have jobs. Our jobs are secure. Jax is so smart. He is healthy, besides the cold that has been going around. He is finally over it. I am still sick though. Ugh. We have a lot to be grateful for. We have great loving families. Life is just simple and great right now. I know this time will pass and then he will be older and I will be wishing that these were problems instead of worrying about him driving, being out late, growing up, etc. Being a mom changes your outlook on the world. I can't sit and think about how crazy the world is because it just scares the crap right out of me. I remind myself to live simply and love greatly. I count my blessings everyday. Thank you everyone for your love and support.

The Spawn!

2009-02-18T22:55:00.005-07:00

I am struggling with holding the power with my 3 year old son. He yells at me, hits me, throws stuff, etc. I feel like I have no control over my son. Frustration is beginning to take over. I know its the age but it gets a little much. Am I a bad mom for not having control? He tells me no. He is the kid you see in Wal Mart and swear your kids will never act that way. Its not always that bad but Monday, we went to walmart and I left before I even began shopping. I was the mom you look at and wonder how she can lose patience with a little kid. Now I know how. Gosh its so embarassing. Any advice? I love him so much and I don't want this post to come across wrong but my goodness its been hard lately.

Potty Training

2009-02-08T19:32:00.002-07:00

The latest here at the Welch/Leake home is that Jax is doing pretty good with the potty training. He is going in by himself and everything. At first, he would sit to pee and poo but now is standing like the big guys! It is the cutest thing ever.

I had heard "it will just happen". I didn't believe it. I though for sure that he would be in middle school with a diaper on still. But he just said to me one day "i don't want a diaper mom. i want my underwear." He just all of sudden was telling me he had to go potty and now he will just go on his own. I am so proud of him!!! He gets nervous at other people's houses though. The first day he wore his underwear to the sitter, he held it in. She put a diaper on him for his nap and he let it flow. She said he woke up with a loaded diaper. So, its been a little interesting that way. I don't want him to get a bladder infection. He is doing better though. He goes at my mom's. He might do better at the sitter now that he doesn't have to ask for her to lift him. We'll see how tomorrow goes.

All else said, it does JUST happen. Its crazy but true.

Update!

2009-01-21T10:18:00.002-07:00

Hello to all! Its been a while since I posted. Here is the latest.

Work is crazy, we live in Ephraim (the coldest place in Utah), I am going to school again this semester, we are both very grateful to have jobs, Jax has PINK eye, Obama is now the president (eek!), our dogs are growing, Jax is so dang smart, Taylor has been snowboarding, I want to go snowboarding, and life is just ducky!!!

We are looking for a beds - Jax and Us need beds. If you have any or know of any good deals, reliable stores, etc let me know. I have a hard time making big purchases.

Latest Pic

2008-12-12T14:35:00.001-07:00

Me and Jax! I love him so much. I had this done a couple months ago and just barely getting it posted. We took some pictures last weekend with me, Taylor, and Jax. Hopefully it doesn't take me 3 months to get them up :) Have a great weekend!

Christmas Tag

2008-12-07T13:07:00.002-07:00

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? A Good Mixture of Both

2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial. I need a new one because mine is just little

3. When do you put up the tree? The weekend after Thanksgiving

4. When do you take the tree down? After New Years

5. Do you like Egg Nog? Yeah but I have to be easy on it. Its really rich

6. Favorite gift received as a child? Hmmm....probably a Sega Game System. I don't really remember

7. Hardest person to buy for? Any Uncles. When we draw names, I always cross my fingers that I don't get an uncle but it must make it so I get 2 uncles. I have had 2 uncles for the past few years.

8. Easiest person to buy for? Jax

9. Do you have a nativity scene? No but I would really like to buy one next year

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Mail.

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? Gosh. Probably a sweatshirt from my dad. It's the thought that counts though, right?

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? A CHRISTMAS STORY. Taylor loves it too.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Sometimes before Thanksgiving but I attempted the Black Friday this year. I will shop on that day again but I am not going to go at 5 in the morning to WalMart ever again. If there is something that I really want for someone and its a great deal, then maybe.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? All the food, candy, and peppermint ice cream. Too many choices. No Fave.

16. Lights on the tree? yes, white

17. Favorite Christmas song? Wow..not sure. Deck the Halls by SheDaisy is a good one. Santa Claus is coming to town and all the cheesy ones are great and I like the meaningful pretty ones, like The Prayer.

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Well I have just had to drive 20 minutes to my mom's on Christmas Eve and do it all there but this year we are flying to Texas. Looks like we will be altering Christmases with the families

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer?
You KNOW Dasher and Dancer and Prancer and Vixen. Comet and Cupid and Doner and Blitzen. But who do you recall, the most famous reindeer of all.....Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer!! - Pretty sure I know 'em all.

20. Angel on the tree top or a star?Neither. I need to find a cute star. Nothing cheap or cheesy.

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Christmas Morning Baby!! Maybe we get one present the night before.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Selfish people who just want to get get get and not give.

23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I love red and silver. Last year I did red and gold. It was okay. This year is red and silver with Santa.

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Hmmm...really anything homemade and filling.

25. Favorite family Christmas tradition? My parents and Santa set each kids stuff on a corner of a couch. Some gifts are left unwrapped, some are wrapped. Each stocking is in the appropriate corner. Its fun how they set it up!

TEX!!

2008-12-07T12:42:00.003-07:00

Yesterday, Taylor and I buzzed up to Orem to get him a new puppy.

He had a Jack Russell dog for 10 years. When he went back to Texas for Nick's wedding, he left Charlie (the dog) in my care. Charlie was not very happy. Taylor brought him to our place right before he left. The dog was not use to kids and Jax was very playful with him. Chuck was looking out the window every two minutes. He wasn't doing too well. Taylor left on a Friday morning. Charlie had been living at the mill in the dog house and dog run that Taylor had set up for him when they first moved here to Gunnison. So, our house was a new place for him. Jax was making him mad, and he missed Taylor SOOO much. Chuck only listened to Taylor too. He ended up biting Jax twice and snapping at me a few times. Jax was really sick the Wednesday after Taylor left. We were taking Charlie down to Gunnison to put him back into the dog run at the mill because we were going to stay at my mom's and Charlie had bit Jax. I just couldn't have it anymore. I pulled into the mill and up to his dog house. He knew EXACTLY what I was going to do and he wasn't gonna work with me. He growled and snapped at me when I tried to get him out. I then opened the other day so maybe he would see that it wasn't facing his dog house. He ran for a while and then just ran off. Jax was crying because he was so sick. He had a fever and strep throat really bad. Usually when I have watched the dogs before, they will run around for a little bit and stubbornly come back to their living quarters. Chuck was nowhere to be seen. I had looked for him for 2 hours that night and just gave up because I needed to get home to my sick boy (i had my brother bring me a leash and take Jax back to my mom's). Well, the next morning I was on my way to work from my mom's. I pass the mill on my way to work from there. Right after I passed the mill, I saw something I sure didn't want to see. Charlie had been hit the night I tried to put him in his house. I lost all composure. I was bawling. I pulled over and turned around and drove past it again because I didn't want to believe that it was him. I lost all train of thought, responsibility, and sense. I was hysterical. When I went in the door to my mom's she knew what had happened before I could tell her because I was crying so hard. I tried calling Taylor but he didn't answer. I guess his phone was on silent. So, I called his mom. I'm pretty sure she couldn't understand a word I was saying. She then got ahold of Taylor for me. I felt so bad. He held up really good and was really strong about it. I had to go to his work and ask some guys he worked with to bury Chucky Boy for me because I am a girl and just don't deal with that stuff. Kelly, Taylor's boss, was very good about this and took care of it right away. I finally made it to work that day and got my mind off it for a while. My mom watched Jax since he was so sick and I missed the day before that. On my way back to my mom's after work, I saw the scene of the crime and lost it again. Oh man. That was so hard. Then when Taylor came back from Texas, we went to get his truck at the mill after getting him from the airport. We went to his grave and I was a mess again. I will still cry sometimes if we bring him up and reminise about things he would do. I feel so so bad about it. That was Taylor's best buddy since the 8th grade.

Since I feel responsible for the whole thing, I got Taylor a new puppy. He had been looking online and didn't really know what he wanted. We went to my uncle Matt's for Thanksgiving and they had 5 week old golden retrievers. The dad, Beackam, is BEAUTIFUL and HUGE. Taylor fell in love with him and wanted a male puppy. Here he is.

I love him so much. He has the first pup to leave the bunch. His collar is black with golden stars. It matches him perfect. I love it. Taylor is in love with him. Jade is a little jealous but that's okay. She just wants to play and box with him but he is too little. Soon, he will be able to kick her butt. Haha.

Christmas in Dixie

2008-12-05T15:23:00.003-07:00

We are going to Texas for Christmas this year. Taylor's mom bought us tickets. I am very excited!!! Jax gets to go on his first airplane ride. He gets to meet all of Taylor's family. He has met Mike, Cathy, and Kimmy (Dad, Mom, Sister) but there is more for him to meet. It will be fun. We are flying there and I don't know what to do for gifts. Any suggestions as to what gifts to take and how to get them there? Airlines charge for checked bags now days. LAME. We are only allowed one carry on. The dang airlines are so dang picky anymore. I don't blame them but some things are a little much. Anyhow. It's all I think about anymore because I am so dang excited. We will get in really late the night of the 23rd and fly out really early the morning of the 28th. So, we will be able to chill Wednesday through Saturday. Taylor's family is awesome. I absolutely love them. We are all very excited to go back and spend some time with them.

Christmas Wreath

2008-12-05T10:00:00.003-07:00

I made my very first Christmas Wreath. It turned out pretty good. Plain but cute! I like it :)

Jax's Haircut

2008-11-25T15:41:00.003-07:00

It's inevitable that every toddler will end up giving him/herself their own hair cut. Jax decided to shave his. He didn't get too far. He was in the tub and got a hold of my bikini line razor - it isn't sharp to touch because it has a little comb like thing on the end. He was just a combing and shaving away when I went to check on him in the tub. Here is the end result. I don't know what to do since he has pictures Friday and we have pictures next weekend.

Should I

* BUZZ it

* COMB It Over and Try to Hide it

* Have a hairstylist try to do a miracle

Let me know your opinion..

Chillin Saturday

2008-11-22T10:37:00.003-07:00

Good Morning to ALL!!! I am a little frustrated. I am going to vent. Okay here I go.

There is a lot of unknown questions right now in my life...

*Am I EVER going to get married to this man that I love with all of my heart?
*Now that he has this job promotion/relocation - to Glenwood Springs, CO when and where will we move?

*Will we be married before we go?
*Will we be engaged before we go? I told him we have to be atleast engaged before I just drop everything, change my life, and pick up and move to another STATE. (he doesn't seem to get that). AM I OUT OF LINE FOR FEELING THIS WAY? I want your feedback folks.

*Why do we have to be moving to such a freaking expensive place?
*Will we look for rings ever?
*Why are MEN retarded (I know I will never get an answer to this one).
*Do I question our relationship if we aren't married before we move?
*Am I silly for looking at wedding rings, dresses, colors, etc???

Gosh dang its frustrating growing up. Its even more frustrating waiting for a man to commit. I know men in general have a harder time commiting than women do, but holy schmokes I get ornery because he acts like a doofus!

Okay I am done venting for a little while. I am going to clean and hopefully I will get some of my frustration out.

Lose Weight

2008-11-12T12:05:00.001-07:00

Alright everyone. I am starting a journey today to lose weight. Pepsi and other soda are my weaknesses. Okay actually FOOD and pop are my weaknesses. Also, I do not exercise anymore. I have gained weight. It needs to stop. The only way it is going to stop is if I do something about it. I am going to go over to the new gym here in Ephraim and sign up RIGHT NOW! I will update this post daily to track my process. Words of encouragement are greatly appreciated. I will try my hardest to cut back on the pop and calories. Okay. Here I go. I will update this post later. Check ya lata!!
Saturday November 8: Ran a mile, arm exercises, elyptical, stomach machine, inner thighs machine

Sunday November 9: Chilled

Monday November 10: Did not drink any soda

Tuesday Nov 11: Nothing really. I did have a pepsi. But I cut back on all calories.

Wednesday Nov 12: Jax is sick today so I probably won't get anything done. Jax is numero uno and it breaks my heart when he is sick.

Potty Training

2008-11-10T19:27:00.003-07:00

Okay so Jax is now 3 years old. I have been trying off and on the past year to get him to go potty in the toilet. He had a little while where he was doing really well. He wanted to go and would tell me. Then, it stopped. I ask him every day if he would like to go potty in the toilet and he just tells me no. I bought him a baby toilet..he is too big for it. His fat little butt is too big. Me and Taylor thought that a little toilet woule be the key but oh no. I don't know what to do. Saturday afternoon, I didn't put a diaper back on him and thought that he would feel a little tinkle and would maybe want to go. Oh no....he just peed in his shorts and was hanging out in them. It was gross. Does anyone have any ideas to potty training? I know a lot of people say to just let them do it on their own time. At this rate he will just pee his pants until he is old. He will never have to get out of a diaper. He will just change to the old people diapers when it is time. Gosh.

Lose Weight

2008-11-08T08:42:00.004-07:00

Alright everyone. I am starting a journey today to lose weight. Pepsi and other soda are my weaknesses. Okay actually FOOD and pop are my weaknesses. Also, I do not exercise anymore. I have gained weight. It needs to stop. The only way it is going to stop is if I do something about it. I am going to go over to the new gym here in Ephraim and sign up RIGHT NOW! I will update this post daily to track my process. Words of encouragement are greatly appreciated. I will try my hardest to cut back on the pop and calories. Okay. Here I go. I will update this post later. Check ya lata!!

Saturday November 8: Ran a mile, arm exercises, elyptical, stomach machine, inner thighs machine

Sunday November 9: Chilled

Monday November 10: Did not drink any soda

GO UTES!!!

2008-11-06T17:58:00.004-07:00

I am getting ready to watch the UTAH vs TCU game. TCU is going to lose and UTAH WILL WIN! WOO WOO! BLACK OUT GAME

This should be interesting given the fact that I am from Utah and Taylor is from Texas. GO UTES!!!

JADE

2008-11-05T13:58:00.003-07:00

I love my dog/puppy dearly but this made me so mad yesterday. I went home at lunch and she had tore the cushions off the couch and ripped up a box (which was okay) and got into my purse. Luckily I had taken my other purse with me yesterday or there would have been some really valuble things ruined. I know I need to get her a dog house, but I am just waiting on Taylor to bring his up here. When he goes to Texas this weekend, he is taking Lola (his beagle) to his brother. Then when he gets back, he is going to bring his other dog, Chuck (a jack russell), and the dog house up here. It better happen quickly because I am sick of my house looking like this.

I have been putting her outside but today it was dang cold and there is snow on the ground. Boxers cant handle to cold or too hot because they don't have very thick fur at all. She went outside yesterday though. I was so mad. Between her, Jax, and Taylor I don't know if I can ever get my place all the way CLEAN. Haha. Good Luck to me!

Baby Hungry

2008-11-02T16:57:00.003-07:00

Is it okay that I am baby hungry? I want more kids so bad. I just love to hold everyone else's babies because I know it's not my time to have anymore yet. Me and Taylor want kids bad though. I was pregnant and experienced a miscarriage. This has made me even more baby hungry. I have been experiencing some post pardum depression. It is hard. I will be okay and then all of a sudden I am just completely bawling and down in the dumps. Maybe I shouldn't go public with this stuff but I just feel so alone with these experiences lately. I don't want to bug Taylor about it because I feel stupid that it is still bothering me.

The picture shows two things that I want...a baby and a ring. I am the kind of person who wants things and wants them now. I have hard time letting time and fate do their jobs. I know me and Taylor are going to end up married but I have a hard time waiting for him to make the decision. Goodness I am such a girl. Emotional, dramatic, and retarded. No offense to you other women out there :)

I really need to wait for a baby for about another year though. My doctor told me to wait and make sure my cancer is cleared up. It makes sense and I know I need to wait but I would LOVE to be pregnant right now.

Bye Bye October

2008-11-02T12:58:00.006-07:00

We had a lot of fun throughout October. We got moved into our new place in Ephraim. We carved pumpkins and cooked the seeds (Jade ate ALL of them while we were sleeping). We made ghost and pumpkin sugar cookies. Me and Taylor went to some fights. Jax had a sleepover at Mimi's and played in the leaves with Carter. Taylor went to Vegas.

Now we are starting November and it has already been fun. Jax had a birthday. Taylor will be going to Texas next weekend and staying for nine days :(. I get to go to Carrie Underwood!! I am very excited. Me and Tina (Whitney Soper) are going. It will be awesome

It was a HAPPY HALLOWEEN

2008-11-01T22:37:00.003-06:00

It was a very Happy Halloween for us, besides the fact that I wish Taylor was here with us. Jax dressed up as Batman. We went to quite a few houses here in Ephraim. Jax was loving it. He kept wanting to go to the next house and the next house. He was so good and so happy. The minute he got candy, he started eating it. After a bunch of houses, we went to a trunk or treat at the church down the street and boy did we get lots to eat! Haha. Rapper Ash made a rad hash. Gosh I am on FIRE tonight. Hehe. Anyhow....We then drove on down to Gunnison. We went to Mimi's house, Susie's, Grandma Sandy's, Laurie's, and Janell's. He was on such a sugar rush. It was hilarious. We then went to Mimi's (my parent's) house. We ended up just sleeping there. Jax had a great time and looked very cute. I love him so so much.

Taylor is in VEGAS

2008-11-01T22:16:00.006-06:00

I am lonely this weekend :( Taylor went to Vegas

for his buddy Nick's bachelor party. The following pictures show my emotions this weekend.

I know they are all having one last HOORAH with all of the buddies from high school and texas but they just better be somewhat decent. They are staying at the New York New York Hotel.

Taylor is a good boy but men are just gross. Who came up with the thought of Bachelor Parties anyway. I want to switch places and go to Vegas for a weekend and see how Taylor reacts. Gosh it is hard to have him go away for a whole weekend. Especially this one. Last night was Halloween and today is Jaxton's birthday. But he is the best man at this wedding so he has to be there. I wish he was here.

Happy Birthday Jax!

2008-10-31T09:17:00.005-06:00

Tomorrow, November 1st, is Jaxton's Birthday. He will be turning the big 3! He has nailed down holding up three fingers. He struggled at first but he has got it and he tells everyone, including random people at WalMart, that he is three on his birthday. He is so cute.

We are having cake and ice cream at our cute little home in good ol' E Town! Family and Friends are welcome.

I ordered him a Lightning McQueen cake from Kent's. I am excited to see how it looks. I will post a picture of it later this weekend. He is getting pants and toys for his birthday. He has plenty of shirts but his legs are getting longer. They aren't as short and chubby as they use to be. Although, I have to get the pants big enough to fit around his belly.

Puppy in a Basket

2008-10-30T22:07:00.003-06:00

Jade cracks me up all the time. Today I was mad at her though because she chewed up my photo book and a plant decoration. Luckily she didn't really chew up any pics. The other night, I had just folded a load of Taylor's laundry and put them in a basket. Jade came in the kitchen and was determined that she was going to snuggle up in the basket of fresh clean clothes. I watched her muffle around in a circle a time or two. She wiggled her way into a complete ball and was able to fit in the basket. I didn't think she could do it but she did.

Jax & Leah

2008-10-30T17:54:00.004-06:00

Jax goes to his babysitter's Monday-Friday. He has been going to Juli's for the past 2 years and three months. WOW! Time flies. Juli has a daughter, Leah, who is just a few months older than Jax. They are the best of buddies. The other day when I went to pick him up, they went outside to jump on the tramp. They are so cute together! Here are just a couple pics of them playing together :)

Fellow Bloggers

2008-10-22T08:11:00.003-06:00

Hey ya'll. I need your blog links sent to my email so I can add them to my "Fellow Bloggers" list. Thanks :)

Latest Updates

2008-09-06T11:20:00.002-06:00

Hello to all! Its been a while since I have blogged. My computer is out of commission and work is so busy that I don't get a break to check or update my blog. A lot has been going on lately. Holy schmokes. Either there is No Rest for The Wicked or The Good Don't Need Rest. I can be wicked but gosh life never slows down. I guess if it did, I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

Jax is really into singing. I love it. He is so dang cute. He likes "Go the Distance" from Hercules. He sings all the time. He likes "All I Wanna Do" by Sugarland too. "Life is a Highway" by Rascal Flatts is a favorite. He refers to it as his song or Lightning McQueen.

Speaking of Lightning McQueen, we went to the Sanpete County Demolition Derby a couple weeks ago. There was a car painted like Lightning McQueen and Jax was having a corinary. He LOVED it. He didn't want to leave the derby. We had to walk past the cars and show him that they were "going to sleep and that they were all done crashing." He still talks about it.

I am learning that he picks up on EVERYTHING. If I drop something or spill or mess up, he will take the words right out of my mouth (or my dad's) and say "oh shhhitt." I haven't said it that much because I knew that I needed to watch my mouth but he is so observant. My family wonders why I am constantly telling them to watch what they do around him. He will do as we do not as we say. He is a toddler. That is their nature.

I got a new car. 2008 Ford Fusion. It is beautiful. My stratus (aka BOAT) kept giving me troubles so I drove it down to Freedom Ford and asked to trade it in. I thought I better get it down there before I was pushing it down there and then they would not take it. They would lock the doors and kick me out.

Dancing has always been a passion of mine. I now get the great opportunity to teach it! I am helping a lady in Ephraim teach dance. She has a nice studio in the basement of her old house. She rents out the top and has her studio in the basement. It is so fun. Plus, its some good money.

Schooling will be a part of my life for which seems like FOREVER. I am just part time now though. I have to get a good degree. It will be slowly but for dang surely!! I want to have a stable financial life. I don't want to struggle or live paycheck to paycheck. Budgeting is a big part of it right now. I am getting better at it. I am in the process of training myself "do i absolutely NEED that right now or can it wait?" When I think like this, I do pretty dang good. The only splurge I plan on making in the near future is a dang camera. I miss out on things without one.

moving

2008-06-26T14:44:00.006-06:00

We are moving back to G Town this weekend. I am excited because Jax will have his aunt and uncles to play with every day. Plus, we will be able to see our puppy, Jade, every day! It will be a good thing. It will be an adjustment, but its all good!

My sister Madi LOVES Jax so much. He pesters her and its funny. Its a love/hate situation. She gets so irritated with him and so he knows he can push her buttons. It is so funny how kids know emotions and can feel the MAD MOOD VIBE. He loves Madi too though. Madi & Carter are so good with me. Brother Taylor (aka Tay Tay) is really good to babysit him. They all love him so much. He loves them too. When we are at our place and we haven't seen them for a while, he will ask for them. It is so cute.

Carter is like a big brother to him. They can play outside in the pool, dirt, with the dogs, and pretty much anything for hours. Carter is pretty good to sit and play the good ol' XBox with Jax. He is usually pretty patience with him. They both like Spongebob & Pokemon. Of course, Carter introduced Pokemon to him because that stuff drives me nuts! They are total Goobers when they are together. Proof is seen below.

This move will really be a good thing. Eventually, we will be back out on our own and hopefully into a cute small home in Manti or Ephraim. I really don't want to live in Gunnison forever. The packing is going good. I am going to go buy a bag of black garbage bags and just throw all of my clothes and toys and CRAP into them and get them to my moms. I think I will buy some tags so I can label them or something.

Summer '08 Has Arrived!

2008-06-21T09:17:00.003-06:00

Hola to All! So, neither me or Jax had our procedures last week. It was a crazy week. Everything happens for a reason though. I feel these procedures didn't happen because I am suppose to be moved out in a week. Well, it would have been tough to do it with me being able to do nothing. They have been rescheduled for July. Anyone want to come help me move this week? Haha. Seriously...you can come help! I would love it. :) But anyhow, let me know how you guys are all doing.

The bugs are out of control this summer. Its probably because it is so moist and there are still cool temperatures. Hopefully the hot temperatures that have been around will burn off th eir wings so they cant fly. That would be great! Here is a picture of my son, aka Quasimoto, after mosquitos sucked his blood! Damn mosquitos!

It makes me so sad :( I went in to wake him up and he rolled over and out from under his blanket and his eye scared me. I kind of started to panic but then I realized he had been bitten by mosquitos. His right ear also has one in this picture. It was red and swollen. The dr gave me some medicine to give him for the one under his eye because it could turn more serious. The swelling could go behind his eye and impair his vision. All is good though! The swelling has gone down. He is obviously allergic. We keep day time and night time allergy medicine in the cabinet for when the mosquitos bypass the OFF spray and get to him. I am tempted to spray my mom and dad's lawn with the yard repellent. They are horrible. I don't want my child to become a hermet because of the darn bugs so we keep mosquito repellent all over - at each door, in my purse, i send some to the sitter and put some in his milk...haha Just Kidding! But, honestly those darn bugs serve no purpose! He is a trooper though. He just keeps on playing outside and acting like spiderman. He is getting so big so fast.

We are going to work on potty time when we move in with Mimi & Bumpa. He was doing really good for a while and wanted to go potty on the big toilet and then he went back to not wanting to. Any ideas for potty training? Let me know. I need to be more focused on it so I think after I get moved and settled in, I wont be so distracted. Hopefully we can tackle a lot of it before my procedure. July will be fun though :) We have the 4th of July (also my Birthday), camping, fishing, a Bee's Game, and some trips to the cute Manti pool planned. If anyone wants to come join us, you are more than welcome to.

Happy Summer! Wear sunscreen and bug repellent. Toodles :)

Blogger is still FOREIGN to me

2008-06-12T10:25:00.002-06:00

Hey everybody. I am still new to this so once I figure out how to get cute layouts and music and format it better, i will have a rawkin page. I need to get a new camera as well so I can take lots of pics of my boys. Jax is into this not eating stage....just chocolate. Kind of like me :) haha. JK! He loves food but if he knows there is chocolate or candy or some sort of sugar around, he won't eat the real food. But then before he goes to bed, he says he's hungry. Ah kids. I remember being the same way. I still am :)

Things are Looking UP!

2008-06-11T08:33:00.002-06:00

Things are looking better for us right now. That last post was saved as a draft but I didn't know it so I just posted it because it was how I was feeling about a week ago.

I am officially moving in with my parents. I am not too excited about it (and either are they) but desperate times call for desperate measures. It is quite frustrating though because of a few reasons:
1. I have to give up my cute apartment in Ephraim.
2. I have to give up my INDEPENDENCE (just for the time being).
3. My mom wants me to put my couches and TV in the extra room but me and Jax have to share with Madison.
4. They want me to pay a small bill, which is fine, but I feel I should be allowed to have a room for me and Jax instead of my stuff in there for everyone to ruin but yet I am still paying a bill and just kind of shoved wherever.
5. I am a mother and have a small family of my own but I still have to abide by my mother's rules (that includes curfew). What the???
6. I will have to drive about 30 minutes to work and then another 30 minutes back from work each day (gas prices are horrible = my traveling expenses will be horrible).
7. There are ants and spiders (black widows) all over that house. Ants inside and black widows in that extra room I want to stay in and all over outside.

I know I sound ungrateul but I am not. The reason for me moving home is I need to get caught up on my car and medical bills and eventually just pay them off. I swore to myself that the last time I moved out of their house (last august) would my LAST time. But, I am kind of excited in the same sense to move home. Here are the reasons for that:
1. I get to be near my family.
2. I won't be alone at night - even though Jax is there, I still get scared sometimes when its just me and him.
3. Jax will have his buddies to play with (madi, carter, tay tay, mimi, bumpa, and the dogs)
4. I will be home with my puppy every night. I can train her and be with her and play with her and she can sleep by me.
5. We will be closer to Taylor.
6. I will be able to go exercise in the mornings because someone will usually be there in case Jax wakes up (which usually doesn't happen before 8 unless I wake him).
7. I will have the extra assistance (if needed) with Jax when I am having a bad day, if I am sick, if he is sick, or if he isn't listening to me at all (normal right now). It is nice to have my parents to either help calm him or me down. They know more than I do so its good to learn from them about teaching Jax and raising him and having patience with him.
8. I will be close to other family members.

I am very grateful for my family but no matter who you are or how PERFECT a family seems to be, it is always hard for the other children who have been out on their own to move back in. We will manage. I need to talk to mother about the whole situation with the room. I am scared to but I will have to.

I got my car fixed! My AMAZING boss and his wife took care of it for me. I love my job and the people I work with, well most of them :) They are extremely good to me. They are patient with me. If I need to miss because I am sick or because Jax is sick, they are very understanding about it. If I need to leave home because I forgot something or if I need to run to a doctor appointment, they are very nice about it. I LOVE MY JOB!

Me and Taylor have been playing softball with his company team. It has been really fun. I feel it has helped us get past that rough patch we hit a few weeks ago. We are bonding and getting outside of the house now that the weather is STARTING to get nicer. Jax goes with us and plays with the kids of the other teammates. He is usually pretty good but he will take off when I turn my head for a second. But, he is two. He really has been good though. It has been a bonding experience for all of us.

I am cutting back on the soda. I am drinking more water. I am sick of gaining weight. There for a while, I was losing it and looking good. When I move in with my parents, I will be able to go work out in the morning and try to get this extra weight off. Plus, exercise always makes me happier. "Exercise creates endorphins, endorphins make people happy, and happy people just don't shoot their husbands." (Elle Woods, Legally Blonde). I am not gonna shoot anybody but I am just showing that exercise helps people (including me) feel happier, more relaxed, and just BETER all the way around - emotionally, mentally, and physically. This should help me out with my cranky moods that I have been having lately.

Jax will be getting tubes put in his ears on the 17th. Hopefully this will help immensely with reoccuring ear infections. I feel so bad when he gets them because he gets so sick. The doctor said that Jax should feel a whole lot better after this. I sure hope so. Poor little guy. He has been having ear infection after ear infection. The weather has been so up and down that I think it has really affected him with his ears, causing colds and fevers and all that fun stuff. Plus, I know he has allergies and he gets them from me. Sorry bud. So, hopefully these tubes will help out a lot.

I go up to Murray on the 18th for my pre-op appointment and then the 19th I have my procedure. I really hope this gets all of the cells. I don't want to have to go a step further - a cone procedure. The cone procedure will affect the integrity of the cervix and can make it harder for me to have kids. I want more kids here soon so I hope that this procedure gets rid of it. Goodness. I am excited for the rest I will be getting that weekend though. Its pretty sad when I get excited for rest when its after a procedure like that.

I am excited to caught up on my car and medical stuff. I am excited to move in with my parents because I am going to be able to get a new bed in a few months. Maybe that will be my Christmas present to me :) I have plans to decorate my room cute and get some things that I have wanted and needed.

Again, I am just venting about the current events in my life, but I guess that's what a blog is for!

JUNE BUG

2008-06-01T00:46:00.002-06:00

This post is a VENTING post. Read it at your own risk. No judgment allowed :)

Hola... I will have pictures up soon of Texas, My Puppy, and this summer so far.

We didn't make it to the zoo in May but we are for sure going this month. It is going to be so hott but oh well. No more excuses. We should be going camping this month. That will be fun. Other than that, this month may be a bugger. I am having a surgical procedure done to remove some aggressive moderate-severe precancerous cells. I am not too excited. It is nothing big but I am worried about it. This procedure should remove them all but if not my ability to have more kids may be jeopardized. That's the part that upsets me. Plus, I can't afford to miss work. I know my health should be numero uno along with Jax, but lack of money is such a stress for me. That leads to another bugger of this month. I may have to move back in with my parents. No Bueno! I don't know what to do. Any suggestions? I have been doing so good on my own and I have a great new job but I need to pay my car off because I owe more than its worth. Rent is priority over my car though so now I am SOL. Plus, it is hard having two families living under one roof. I don't want to move back. I love living in Ephraim. Gunnison drives me nuts. We don't have the right last name in that town so we are looked down upon by pretty much everyone. I guess I just like being in my own area with new people. I am getting to know the people up here and I like them a lot. I don't want all of my furniture and cute decor to sit in a storage unit for the mice to eat at. GRR! As you can tell, I am upset lately. I was doing really good but I have the BLUES. I don't like it. Stress makes it hard for me to focus on my relationships with my son, my boyfriend, my family, and my friends. I just have a lot on my mind and don't know what to do with it all. I don't like asking people for help or sitting and crying to them because everyone has their own issues. I don't like bugging them or adding to their stresses. But then it all boils up inside and then I tend to break down. This is my new way of venting or letting it out. Maybe I should start a journal too.

Life was starting to go my way. I was almost done with my AS, i had a happy son, my car was running well, i was on time with rent and car payments, i had a cute apartment, i was getting along great with my boyfriend and my family and my friends, i was losing weight, and my stress level was low. Then, these dang precancerous cells came along and everything has gone down hill. I wasn't working as often, bills started getting behind, i started getting cranky, I had to withdrawal from a class for medical reasons, because of not working and lack of my money, my stress began to rise. My relationships started to struggle. The worst-case-scenario thoughts started bubbling and the depression started. What if I can't have more kids, what if it becomes cancer, what if???? I put on my game face and just hope something goes my way each day. Whether its I get to work on time, I play soccer with Jax, or I simply get to bed before midnight. I don't watch what I eat as well because I go to my "comfort food". I tell myself "oh i deserve a pepsi or cookie". There is always some reason that seems to justify my craving.

Summer '08

2008-05-04T12:46:00.004-06:00

The sunshine needs to be consistent. It snowed on May 1st.....crazy weather! But I guess we do live in Utah. This summer is going to be a good one.

In the month of May, Taylor and I are going to Texas over mother's day weekend. We are going to get my boxer puppy :) It will be really fun to meet his family and see where he grew up. I am really nervous though too. Mother's Day is this month. I love this holiday. We are going to take Jax to the zoo at the end of the month. I am really excited. It will be lots of fun. I am working Saturdays at Subway. I love working there because it is a busy atmosphere and Janell is the best. I love the girls I work with too. Hopefully that rebate check will be here this month too. :)

June is the month of Taylor's birthday....both Taylor's! My brother's b-day is the 8th, along with uncle Matt's and then boyfriend Taylor's the 7th. That first weekend we are going camping. I am really excited. I haven't really been camping since my senior year of high school. Jax has NEVER been. It is going to be lots of fun. Then the next weekend is Father's Day. We will be at my parent's house this day to see my dad or as Jax calls him "Bumpa". They are the best of buddies. I love it! Summer OFFICIALLY starts this month. Yay! I believe we are going to go to Mesquite or St. George a weekend this month. I want to see Melissa and my aunt and uncle'e new place. They will also have a new baby by then...YAY!

July is my favorite month of the year. My birthday is the Fourth of July. Independence Day is that day too. It is such a fun time of year. There are a lot of activities going on. I love it. I want to go to the lake and camping this month. On the 24th of July, we are going to a Salt Lake Bees game. That will be tons of fun because of baseball and the fact that we love baseball but also there is a fireworks show that night. It will be awesome! Taylor's mom and sister are coming up at the end of this month. We will have fun with them while they are up here. We might go to Zions National Park. Taylor still hasn't been. I am going to take him some time this summer. I think a day down there would be good while his mom is up here from Texas.

Schooling

2008-05-04T12:37:00.002-06:00

I am done with this current school year! Summer break is here :) It is so nice to not have to worry about homework for a few months. I will have my Associate of Science degree at the end of next semester. I need to retake my human biology and lab classes. I am excited to retake it though. With my doctor appointments and what not, I got behind. That was my hardest class this semester. So, I ended up getting to withdraw from it instead of getting an F. That was nice. I did really good at the first of the semester but then my health took priority. Life happens.

I will be taking those 2 classes plus an economics class :( I need economics for my major and Snow is cheap so I will just take classes there until I am no longer allowed to or until I have taken all of the ones I need. Full time has been pretty stressful so I will just go part time. Plus, my human bio class is online. It will be good :)

2008-04-30T15:53:00.004-06:00

I miss dancing so much! I need some closure with it. Dancing has always been a big part of my life. I know that I needed more time for school and Jax this last semester but I am ready to be involved with a team. Not part of a time but help a team with dances, competitions, routines, choreography, cleaning, costume selections, judging, anything!! I miss it so much. :( Performing use to be my love but I have grown more to love choreographing and creating dynamic routines.

I love planning things. When my visuals and ideas come to life, I get such a great feeling of gratification. It is hard to explain.

I plan on still attending conventions and camps so that I can stick with the times and continue dancing. It has been such a big part of my life. It is so hard to completely let go.

My Journey to Motherhood!

2008-04-29T14:02:00.001-06:00

I love my boys so so much. Jax has really been the greatest blessing in my life. I love him with every last bit of my heart and soul. He is 2 1/2. He will be three in November. WOW! Time flies by.

He came into my life while I was at Dixie State College in St. George. At the time, I didn't think I was going to make it but now I can't imagine my life without him. He is trully the best thing to ever happen to me. I look back now at things that happened or didn't happen and it all makes sense to me why. At the time, I was wondering, "what did I do to deserve this" or "why didn't I make this team or this spot" but if I had received certain awards, posititions, and memberships I would not have the greatest blessing in my life...Jaxton. For example, I received 2nd attendant at the Miss Gunnison pageant. It is a sore subject for me because I feel I was jipped. I worked hard for all of my outfits, accessories, shoes, music, and talent. The girl who won was given pretty much everything and nailed her interview. I beat her in swimsuit and tied with her in interview. Okay, my talent didn't look very impressive because I didn't have any big cool tricks but technically it was harder. If there would have been a dance judge, she would have seen that. But, like I said, if I would have been Miss Gunnison I believe I wouldn't have had Jax because I would have taken a different road than what I did. I tried out for the Rebellettes at Dixie State College. I NAILED the routine and technique. I wasn't from a big school and was not RICH by any means. I feel that Dixie's team is very political. There was a girl who fell twice and still made it because she was friends with some of the prior girls on the team. But if I would have made the team, I wouldn't have been hanging out with the friends that I did and probably wouldn't have had Jax. There are more examples that I have but every single one of them proves that everything happens for a reason....Atleast that's what I believe. The song "Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts is my song about Jax. God Blessed the Broken Road that Lead Me Straight to You. Jax, you are the greatest blessing ever. I love him so much.

It is sure hard at times, any mom knows that, but it is so worth it. I will get upset or impatient with him and I feel terrible about it. That is probably why he thinks he is the boss :) It is hard by myself. I don't have anyone to help me discipline him all of the time. When I am at my parent's, they help me and he listens to them (for the most part). Taylor helps me as well but it is a lot for him sometimes considering he has never had kids before. He is great though. I wouldn't be dating him if he wasn't GREAT with Jax and Me. It is buy one get one free with me and Jax :) I told Taylor that from the start and he said it was quite the bargain. What a great guy.

Dating has been difficult with a child...let me rephrase....it has been different. I see a whole other side of guys that I didn't see before. Some guys have been great and others have been creeps about the whole thing. Those were the ones I kicked right out the door and deleted their number. I don't mess around with that bull crap. Atleast I didn't anyway. I don't have to anymore. I found a great guy...Jason Taylor Leake. Jax has done really well with the dating issue. I have tried to not get him attached to anyone unless I know that there is potential with the guy. He is so stubborn though that I just let him do it on his own time. That is the only way I can do it. I haven't forced anything. This kind of thing doesn't just happen overnight either. People forget that and expect him and Taylor to be like father and son right off the bat. It has taken time...for both parts. But they are great boys and I love them both so very much.

About Us!

2008-04-28T13:17:00.001-06:00

Hola! Jax and I are just plugging away every day. I am trying to get done with my Associates of Science degree. Jax is about sick of all of my homework and so am I. We live in a cute apartment here in Ephraim. Jax is officially a toddler because he is in the "terrible 2's". If anyone is wondering who the boss is here at our house, he will tell ya....its him. Not me! Haha. He is so fun though. He is a boy through and through. He keeps me going til the wee hours of the morning. Unfortunately he got his night-owlness from me. I am not that way anymore but I use to be. He wants to play and read books til midnight, sometimes later. I try to put him in his room or lie down with him but like I said, he is the boss.

Ephraim is good for us. It isn't Gunnison but it isn't the city either. We are still close to Mimi and Bumpa. They love him so much. Along with Carter, Madi, and Tay Tay (Taylor). Jax loves going there and playing with the kids and now the dog...oh and the 80 cats that live there :)...

Jax has neighbor kids he just loves to go play with. Now that it is getting warm, we play outside, ride bikes, go play soccer at the school park across the street, and draw on the sidewalk with chalk. How nice would it be to be a kid again?

I just got a new job. I have been working at the college for almost two years but I am just about done with schooling so I wanted a change in all atmospheres, plus this job pays more. Bailey Farms is where I am working now. No I am not bailing hay, but I am weighing hay and selling it. I work in the office and there is a lot to do. I love it though. The Bailey's are really good people and gave me a really good offer. They wanted me to start right away so I did. They have worked with my crazy schedule until school is out. Then it will be full time. It will be really good. Jax still goes to the same sitter. She is great! We love her tons. Jax is treated like one of her kids. They love him and he loves them. Her name is Juli. She is so good to me and to work with my schedule. I absolutely love her and her family.

I am dating a kid named Taylor Leake. He is from Longview, Texas. He is the GREATEST guy I have dated. He is really good to Jax and to me. We have been dating for 8 months now. I love him so much. Things are solid and great with all three of us! I love my boys. That's for sure!